Yes you read that correctly my life plan went to shit. I am one of those girls that plans EVERYTHING and I mean EVERY THEORY/ EVERY OUTFIT/ EVERY MAKEUP LOOK and pretty much all the other small details of my life. From the age of 8 when I truly discovered that my mother was a teen mother I figured I would plan my entire life so that I wouldn’t have to be in the spot that she was in. See I always new I didny want to be a teen mom but I also knew I wanted to have control over EVERYTHING else that happened in my life. You can all me a control free I call it LIFE PLANNING!
See no one ever told me Jesus laughs at people like me. See I’m a paradox I plan things but I don’t think about the reaction of my actions if that makes sense😉. I plan and plan and then do as I please not giving a single fuck about what will happen after. Heres the thing I figured I would plan my life at the age of 17 and have no idea how I would get there I just know what i want it to be. For instance I created this blog and had no idea it would become what it is today. Just yesterday I read my post on a website and the author called me “the girl next door with a potty mouth”- Thank you very much.
So why do I say my life plan went to shit here’s why
1- I’m 23 and I still haven’t figured out how to properly negotiate through life.
2- In my life plan at 23 I would be engaged ehhmm still have an empty finger
3- I would know exaclty what would happen next because I do not like surprises
4- I would know my life purpose because It can’t just be talking shit
5- I would have figured out that you can’t plan life year by year because God has a way of through you curve balls to teach you something. And when i say curveballs I mean CURVE FUCKING BALLS.
Here’s the way I see life I see life as a game of baseball. It’s your turn to bat and you stand there ready to hit the baseball as furthest you can with your wooden bat. However, God doesn’t through you any damn baseballs he throughs you a FUCKING basketball instead, so now you have no damn idea how the hell you should hit the ball. Should you catch it and dunk it on the ground? or should you hit it with the bat and hope for the best?
Whichever, you deicde to do you must think quickly or you will get hit with another curve ball that you have no idea how to handle. If you happen to handle it well and move on to the second base just know another thing is on it’s way.
Are you a control freak life planner like me? Or do you go with the flow and pray the curveballs are baseballs instead of footballs? Let me know in the comments below super interested in your thoughts on life.